Grace: God’s unconditional merit and favorEva Grace, where do I begin? Your little life has been nothing short of a miracle. From the day we found out I was pregnant with you, through the 9 months I carried you - your life has had so much purpose, grace and provision straight from the hand of God. Little girl, you were hoped for and prayed for so many years. Our journey to hold you in our arms was not easy, but through the years of waiting, God proved that His grace is sufficient to carry us along through every hardship, every joy (2 Cor. 12:9). He is our portion and He is always more than enough. He has now provided us with you, our living reminder of His grace and love.
But he said to me,A few weeks prior to your birth, the doctors started monitoring me closely for pregnancy induced hypertension (high blood pressure). They were worried as high blood pressure can often lead to harm of the placenta and preeclampsia, which can be toxic to my body and yours. At 36 weeks, the doctors told me that if my blood pressure did not improve, they would want to deliver you early at 37 weeks to ensure both of us were safe and healthy. They began running non-stress tests on you a couple times a week to ensure that you were still growing well and weren’t effected by my pressures. Each time, you checked out so wonderfully and healthy; however, mommy’s blood press continued to be high. On January 15, 2016, the doctors scheduled for mommy to be induced at 7:30 AM on Saturday, January 23, 2016 (37 weeks, 2 days).
The first few nights
Precious girl, these first few days at home have been amazing. You have fit so perfectly into our lives and we couldn’t imagine them without you. You are getting more alert and sleeping better with each day. I have to keep reminding myself, you are still a few weeks out from when normal babies are delivered, so you still have a lot of learning and growing to do. Eva, being your momma is the greatest gift I could imagine. It is such a joy for me to care for you, to calm your fears and frustration, to nourish your tiny body. You are so beautiful and we cannot get over you. There are now words to explain how we feel right now. God is so good.